No More Shame

For over four months I sat beside or in a boat on the lake. I did this every day. I was in a residential rehabilitation program…. we call it rehab.

God met me there. He is still with me don’t get me wrong. But He MET me THERE. Slowly He just healed me. I sat calmly, I listened, I meditated on His Word. and he met me there…

During one of our classes the counselors did an exercise with us where we were supposed to go to a place in our minds… a “safe space”… while there we were to relax and enjoy the freedom of being safe.

At the time I could not do it. I could not muster up a “safe space” even in my mind. My mind and body have always been on alert. Childhood sexual abuse and trauma does that to a person. I always had my guard up. Even if I had a smile on my face. The anxiousness was always there lingering near the surface.

Yesterday I found my mental safe space, God put it in my mind. As I was feeling anxious He took me back to my hours on the lake. Where I delighted in Him and He delighted in me.

I now have a safe space. I was wounded and He healed me. I was lost and He found me.

God’s Grace and His unfailing Love for me are my undoing in every good sense of the word.